For 14 years, I lived the life of a celibate, vegetarian Hindu nun in the US ashram of two Hindu gurus. Then in a single traumatic moment, I learned the two men were not God incarnate, as they’d claimed. They were malignant narcissistic conmen dressed in saffron clothing, running an elaborate and twisted spiritual con game that was nothing more than a secret sex cult, for nearly sixty years.

I had no clue that I would play an instrumental role in exposing their lies and secrets.

As a lifelong introvert and wallflower, I had never taken on a cause before. But I had never faced such a horrible reality. I had a burning desire to publicly share the truth about my former “gurus.” I was driven by a powerful inner drive to become a spokesperson, advocating for the victims of this cult—and to hopefully save people from this fate.

In the beginning, I believed I had found the one true spiritual path to God. But then the truth came spilling from people with dark secrets to tell. While the revelations devastated me, the fact that no one had warned me made me furious. I decided that I would not be one of the silent ex-members to leave this cult and never speak out. I decided that I would not keep their secrets!

My commitment to this cause led me in several directions—including starting a blog, collaborating with a small group of ex-devotees, telling the cult’s secrets to an investigative newspaper journalist, talking to an FBI agent, sharing insider information with the attorneys prosecuting one of the gurus, telling my story to producers of an episode of John Walsh’s The Hunt, and answering the questions of people from around the world who contact me.

The culmination of my efforts to tell the world the truth is Sex, Lies, and Two Hindu Gurus. My hope is that my story gives readers a rare inside look at how this cult’s con game operates, how it ruins people’s lives, what the gurus were doing behind closed doors, and why no one has stopped this organization from raping underage girls.

If my book lets the victims know they are not alone and helps keep others out of the clutches of the self-serving and destructive spiritual con game started by these two madmen, then it will have been a success.

I am currently writing other books based on my experience of pursuing God while unknowingly living in a sex cult, including one that shares insights on living a deeply spiritual, but guru-free, life.

I welcome hearing from any victim of Jagadguru Kripalu Parishat. And also from anyone with questions on living a spiritual life with a guru.